This is re-posted from an old, now dead blog.
It is amazing to see how a body can change, and adapt to changes. In the last couple of months, there have been some incredibly huge and very scary changes in my life. But my health is coping, surprisingly well.
It’s made such a difference, having an achievable dream that I am actively working towards. Just focusing on short and long term goals and not feeling trapped by illnesses and situations.
Even just being enthusiastic and excited about something – a hobby, a goal, travel, an enjoyable job, seems to help significantly.
A scan yesterday gave me a pleasant shock – it was the first time that adenomyosis measurements have improved. And it was a substantial improvement.
It may be due to higher endorphins or the new Mirena finally stabilizing. Or perhaps it’s a delayed reaction to the Zoladex treatment, maybe related to significant weight loss (now 40+ kilos), or increased fitness. I really have no idea.
It’s likely to be a combination of everything, as is anything health-related. But I’m becoming more sold on the importance of having a positive outlook, and dreams to work towards.
On the other hand, some of the downsides of the changes I mentioned before; I am having to study for very long hours (so much typing), and sort through, sell and pack my stuff (so much lifting and reaching).
Lack of sleep, fear of big changes, and of course stress, are contributing to ongoing nausea, and I’m having to force myself to eat – something I hate doing.
Although my weight has stabilized after a 5kg drop in one week, my clothes are becoming increasingly loose. I’ve discovered how expensive fast weight loss is, having to replace my clothes with smaller ones at an incredible rate.
But, amazingly, I seem to be coping well.
I am now much more hopeful for how I’ll adapt when I move overseas.